Oct 7, 2011

The Decision Have Been Made...

I know any decision that I made will not effect anyone out there but this is what I feel right now about my personal feeling especially about my life decision. So lets get bored a bit about my story.. 

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Everyone out there always have a chance to make decision in their life and so do I, tidak kisah lah decision macam mana pun but what I know, every decision will always effect your own life. Me, myself had done a few decision that bring me with who I am now.

1st decision that I've made was when I'm successfully given the chance to further my study. When I still in Form 5, my Account teacher will always remind us that "pergi timba ilmu di tempat orang & jangan jadi katak bawah tempurung". She always remind us to do well in our study and further our study out from where we have been born. So start dari sana my wish was to challenge myself untuk study and get a good result then study luar dari Labuan. Lepas dapat ja result SPM with satisfied result I get place in Labuan Matriculation College(LMC/KML). So masa dalam KML I was thinking yang saya masih lagi di Labuan (masih lagi belum  keluar) so my next target ialah go to University sambung my study and my main target ialah dapat masuk best University d semenanjung. Tapi after after saya dapat tau di mana saya akan sambung study, I'm crying. Mau tau pa sebab saya nangis, sebab saya tidak dapat Universiti yang saya target then tempat yang saya pigi ialah tempat yang saya tidak tau & most of my friends was not in the same University where I been placed. Tapi bila saya ingat balik this is only the chance, tidak mau kecewakan my family especially my mom & dad. At last I made a decision to went there. The place was Segamat, Johor. That was a big decision for me, sebabnya if I didn't go to study there mana saya ada di tempat saya ni sekarang kan. Then saya tidak juga jumpa my fiancee. :p hehehe...

Ok come to my main point (panjang kan cerita di atas, padahal belum masuk main point)

2nd decision yang I have done was decision to get married. Decision of getting married was a big-big decision because this was involve not only my life but my future and my new family. Once I get married, saya kena keluar dari rumah my family and will follow my husband, I need to resigned and find a new job at my husband place, I need to learn new environment there, & etc... A few days ago, my mood was not very good. Tidak tau lah kenapa, mungkin mood mau kawin + nervous + kerisauan + to much thinking made my day worst sampai hampir the whole week my tear mengalir2. Then think samada can I do my best once I get married sudah, much worst saya makin takut sampai my fiancee worried about me. Sudah lah kami memang berjauhan lagi kan, asal cakap dalam phone my tear memang pandai keluar sendiri. Then after a few days dia kasi nasihat-nasihat saya, bagi semangat baru lah okay-okay sudah sikit (memang nervous barangkali tu kan). Then after dengar nasihat-nasihat dia then at last decision last saya was about my last working day here, my 3rd decision.

3rd decision saya ialah bagi notice awal bulan 12 sama bos supaya saya tidak pikir banyak lagi pasal kerja saya di cini. Biarlah ada bonus ka, xda bonus ka smua belakang kira sudah. Yang penting I can get focus with my marriage preparation and my preparation untuk cari kerja di tempat husband saya nanti.

Jadi itulah decision yang saya sudah buat setakat ni. Saya tau banyak lagi decision yang saya perlu buat di masa akan datang. I hope I have the courage untuk hadapi semua cabaran+rintangan di depan saya nanti. One more thing that I have learn sepanjang saya buat decision. Apa yang kita rancang tidak semestinya akan jadi and once plan yang kita rancang tidak tercapai jangan terlampau kecewa and putus asa sebab we don't know maybe God have more beautiful plan for us. Kan... :) 

Don;t get bored my personal story k, sebab ni luahan cerita+hati. :)
So how about you?? What decision that you been made yang transform your life??


17 comments:

Aki said...

oh oh oh.. ko mo tau sesuatu?? yakinlah dengan apa yang ko buat A-me.. sebab dari pemerhatian sa,ko seorang yang befikir dulu sebelum bertindak.. so,ko kena yakin diri.. ^_^.v..

♡ a-Me ♡ said...

Aki: thank you so much sebab bagi saya semangat, memang sa perasan jga ni, sa kurang confident sma diri sndri kadang-kadang wlupun sdah buat keptusan.. :) Thank you Aki..

beaty said...

a-me..banyak betul keputusan yang perlu kita buat kan kalau sudah meningkat dewasa..dont lose faith in HIM kio...good luck for everything

♡ a-Me ♡ said...

Beaty: yup btul tu, memang sangat2 banyak ni... But will not lose faith with HIM. Thank you.. :)

Rose Flower said...

Listen to your heart and instinct. Have faith in God and urself. Close urself to god and ask for guidance in whatever things/decision will you make. You see god never fails us. But, don't expect your prayer answered in your own terms but let god answered it in his own time and will, Cuz everything comes from him is the best...GBU sis...

♡ a-Me ♡ said...

Rose: Thank you for the words. God Bless You too sis.. :)

Just said...

even mcm kita nda tau mau decide mcmana kan.. but when the time comes, we will surely make the correct decision jg tu moy... all the best in everything.. :)

♡ a-Me ♡ said...

Sis Just: ya sometime sa mcam tu lah, bila smpai sdah masa dia sa decide pa yg sa rasa ngam seja. Then at last the decision mmg turn well to me.. Thank You Sis.. :)

tiara.dryden said...

it's okay to feel that 'weird' and sad or whatever negative feelings a-me. especially now that you're going to get married soon! :D i think it's normal to be afraid. it's a new life for you and your future husband anyway right? :)

if things doesn't turn out okay in an instant, have faith and keep praying to God. He knows best :)

Kay Masingan said...

hi A-me, kamu sudah cukup dewasa untuk buat keputusan sendiri..jangan takut atau lemah semangat. MUngkin ko sedang berkecamuk fikiran sebab will get married soon. Congrats ya..:)

AnnieMing said...

When it comes to decision making, we'll face stuff like this. Banyak benda kita akan fikir.. Take your time, pray more & discuss it with your trusted ones. I'm wishing the best in your life, a-Me!

Gunaqz said...

I can relate to your feeling my dear. Saya pun baru melalui keadaan macam ko, I promise u, it's normal to feel like that.

My biggest decision so far is resigning from my favourite job, cikgu sekolah. Sudah sah jawatan, gaji pun OK, tempat kerja pun seronok...malangnya saya perlu resign juga, ikut laki migrate pigi Australia. Yang betul, lima tahun lepas lagi laki suruh resign tapi saya berkeras mau kerja dan tinggal Msia. Sayang bah kerja. Penat-penat belajar, tau-tau berenti begitu saja. Takut nanti rindu mama lagi, risau mau kasi tinggal kucing sama anjing lagi, risau masa depan lagi, macam-macam lah. Akhirnya saya akur juga, saya berhenti kerana saya sayang laki saya. Tidak sanggup lagi tahan long-distance marriage.

I understand what you're going through is painful but hang on there, a-Me dear. Andang-andang lah itu, tambah-tambah lagi ko ada stress mo urus majlis ko. You'll be alright, I promise. Once you've gone through what you've planned, you'll find that it's not that scary after all.

Try not to worry so much, OK :-)

Gunaqz XOXOXO

♡ a-Me ♡ said...

tiara: Yup, mgkin tu feeling kluar sbb mo dkat kawin sdah kan.. Thank You dear.. :)

Kay: ya.. sometime itu feeling untuk buat decision tlampau bnyk bah, 2lah mgkin.. Anyway thank you dear... :)

Annie: Thank you sis, mmg bnyak yg prlu consider at least I know i'm not the only one faces this.. :) thank you so much..

Gunaqz: Really dear, erm.. thats mean bkan sa sorang seja pnah hadapi bnda mcam ni kan.. Thank you for your advise.. its really mean to me..

Wency Jelson said...

my wedding day pn x lama lg oh..hihi.. And that was the most beautiful decision I have ever made..Something I shall never regret.. I have made so many wrong decision in my life..I regret it but there's nothing I can do to change them.. All i can do now cherish my present.. ^^

♡ a-Me ♡ said...

Wency: yup true.. decision to getting married was the most beautiful kan.. All the best for both of us & anyone outside there with their preparation for getting married too.. :)

Armstrong said...

hmm...i dunno la but now only i realize how big a sacrifice is when people get married. kind of sad because i have to leave a job becuse of marrying someone, unless you really prefer a new job la.

for me, my biggest decision or decision that transformed my life was to find a job out of KK... n end up here in JB. but another factor is because she's here. but d main reason is not her, i must have more reasons to come here, right. n my reason is to expose myself to the world out of KK.

♡ a-Me ♡ said...

Arms: I'm not that kind of sad to leave my job here cause memang sa mo cari new job jga but I'm kind of sad b'cause I'm gonna leave my parent than followed my future husband.. Hehehe.. manja kan.. :p.

Thats good for u lah Arms, at least u have a chance + more experience working out of KK kan:)

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